Driving myself Insane.

Really short trip btw

Published on May 9, 2005 By Moderateman In Health & Medicine

As I sit here wondering why I am still here {alive} thoughts go rocketing through my head at the speed of, well thought.

I have one of those "dates with destiny" the 11th, In just two days I will find out if I at least get a chance to do some more of this life {new drug therapy} or if I am sentenced to ...... well you draw a conclusion.

I wonder if I am worthy of a chance at life sometimes, wonder why I lived as my teammates died long ago.

So many profound thoughts and so few answers, {no answers really}.;

I find myself seeking peace more and more these days, and calm acceptence of my situation. {not suceeding}

I find anger comming to my life more frequently and with the power it used to have when I was a younger much more rage filled man.

That's it my thought well has run dry for today.

Peace to all,

elie

Comments (Page 2)

aeryck

on May 09, 2005

I think you might find some comfort in the stories from this old soul. Corrie Ten Boom.
I will pray to Jesus about all you pain. I am sorry I did not know this sooner. So often all we do is argue about meaningless stuff, and are not aware of each others lives outside of the forums. You are on my heart.

Moderateman

on May 09, 2005

16 by aeryck
Monday, May 09, 2005

think you might find some comfort in the stories from this old soul. Corrie Ten Boom.
I will pray to Jesus about all you pain. I am sorry I did not know this sooner. So often all we do is argue about meaningless stuff, and are not aware of each others lives outside of the forums. You are on my heart.

thanx aeryck.. any good thoughts are good enough for me.

Trudygolightly

on May 09, 2005

didn't know things were that bad, and if I've added to your stress in any way I apologiz

I apologize too if I've added any stress with things I've
said.
Know I understand why you said to "just cope"
It's because you do it so very well.
God Bless You and Keep You, and get well too.

Moderateman

on May 09, 2005

Reply By: TrudygolightlyPosted: Monday, May 09, 2005didn't know things were that bad, and if I've added to your stress in any way I apologizI apologize too if I've added any stress with things I've said.Know I understand why you said to "just cope" It's because you do it so very well.God Bless You and Keep You, and get well too.

thank you and nope cannot remember any stress from you.. ....smile>>

Ionolast

on May 09, 2005

Things will look up soon

Moderateman

on May 10, 2005

Reply By: Iconoclast™Posted: Monday, May 09, 2005Things will look up soon

sweet , i saw this , this morning and got a little rush of smiles from it, thank you.

foreverserenity

on May 10, 2005

Elie, I wrote a poem for you...I hope you don't mind...can I have your permission to post it?

Elie
When you feel closed in
Find a quiet place to pray
When you’re pushed beyond your limits
Listen to your heart
I pray that you feel uplifted
That you feel encouraged
I believe that God changes people
And changes everything
I pray that you win this battle
I don’t know you
But I do
I feel your spirit shining through
It is a good spirit
That draws others to you
I know you are
Hopeful, dreaming of the day
That everything will be the way it should be
Trust
That the spirit Divine knows
You are exactly where you ought to be
never forget
That you are a child of god
Know that this moment
Is the one you know for sure
Do not ignore the possibilities
Take deep breaths
And know that you are blessed

I hope you feel better.

Moderateman

on May 10, 2005

Reply By: foreverserenityPosted: Tuesday, May 10, 2005Elie, I wrote a poem for you...I hope you don't mind...can I have your permission to post it?ElieWhen you feel closed in Find a quiet place to prayWhen you’re pushed beyond your limits Listen to your heartI pray that you feel upliftedThat you feel encouragedI believe that God changes people And changes everythingI pray that you win this battleI don’t know you But I doI feel your spirit shining throughIt is a good spiritThat draws others to youI know you areHopeful, dreaming of the dayThat everything will be the way it should beTrustThat the spirit Divine knowsYou are exactly where you ought to benever forgetThat you are a child of godKnow that this momentIs the one you know for sureDo not ignore the possibilitiesTake deep breathsAnd know that you are blessed I hope you feel better.

yes of course post it, and a huge thank you for writing this with me in mind.

elie

Nebraskawoman

on May 10, 2005

I'm sorry to hear about your illness. I've seen what it can do to people. I hope things turn out as well as they can. But know that you are loved and will be missed if anything happens to you. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Nebraskawoman

on May 12, 2005

Well, Mod. How did it turn out? {If you want to say that is.}

Dynosoar

on May 12, 2005

Mod,

Have no fear my cyber friend, at worst we can assume the Devil doesn't need the competition, and at best there's a "No Vacancy" sign hangin' on them pearly gates...

You will be fine, no problems, no worries, no hassles...

( can you feel them good vibes flowing??? )

Dr Guy

on May 12, 2005

( can you feel them good vibes flowing??? )

I sent him some in a plea for him to talk. He said in a day or 2. We want to know earlier!

{{{{{{{++++++++Vibes++++++++}}}}}}

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