Dear Julia its been 20 years since we divorced........ its was ugly....
I know now how wrong I was, I know the example I set for your kids was awfull...
I thought it was the way for me to be....
I was so full of rage and anger in those days..
I know I caused you and the boys pain by my behavior... self destructive as I was I now treasure life..
You taught me kindness ...and I rebuked you for it.. altho I apply it now...
Please forgive me...... I know you cannot forget, but allow me to express my deep seated apoligies to you and the boys...
If I could find you I would apoligize in person.. so you could look into my eyes and see the truth.